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I am like the water. Ever in motion; constantly changing, you can not hold or change me. Accept me as I am

Emotions whirling, swelling with the tides; I am loving and gentle yet deep, dangerous and brutal as an oncoming storm. Do not seek to tempt the darker nature of the sea.


Passions


"The Universe itself is conscious in a way we can never truly understand. It is engaged in a search for meaning, so it breaks itself apart, investing its own consciousness in every form of life. We are the Universe, trying to explain itself." -Delenn Babylon5


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Kind of Weird [08.09.10 at 4:09pm]

So I went to take the trash out to the dumpster today and arrived to a scene of Yellow Caution tape and police car and a man in an Army uniform standing in the apartment parking lot.

I had a moment of OMG and a brief moment of thinking I had walked into a ‘Closer’ Episode… or one of those other crime drama shows you see on TV. When I asked the police officer about the dumpster he said I would have to talk to the landlord about what to do with the trash, so with a big knot in my stomach I walked into the office to find out what was going on.

I walked in and asked the people in the office ‘is everything okay?’ and they gave me the oddest look. I asked them about the tape and they were like ‘oh we are getting the fence fixed’. And I was like ‘Oh wow, cause I was kind of worried with the police car outside and the army guy.’ They thought about it for a moment and put it together and we all started laughing. They assured me everything was okay and I could still use the dumpster as normal… Army guy and PD car were just coincidence *breaths a big sigh of relief*

hehehe… if anything my life is interesting.

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Special thanks [07.05.10 at 11:32am]

I am so grateful for all the people in my life who have been there for me and who have shown me so much love and kindness. As the anger goes away I can’t help but feel as if it was somehow my fault, or if there was not something I could have done differently to make things work, just generally feeling as if in some way I was not good enough. A lot of that also comes from the way my boyfriend made me feel, since  he was trying to pursue relationships behind my back.

However I have so many people that have come forward and just have been so supportive and kind and it just make me feel so loved… I guess it is something I realize now I haven’t felt in awhile.

I was ‘IN’ a relationship and I loved my boyfriend dearly, but I never really felt that feeling of love and support one should feel when you are together with someone. I had not really known it at the time but the little things he would say to me effected my self esteem. I had come to feel that I was not worth anything and therefore had to love what I had.

The process will be slow, but I have to keep telling myself that I am worth more and that I deserve someone  that will truly love me. Also remind myself that someone can love me and can find me attractive.

Really thanks to everyone that helped me realize this, it means more to me than you could possibly know.

 

Well enough with the crying and gushing, I think I shall cheer up by playing with the kitties <3

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Dream Journal [05.03.09 at 1:41pm]
[ mood | disturbed ]

Dream journal 05/02/09

Dream Journal Entry
“Our town is a small one, and if you don’t mind me saying’ one of the finest. It’s a small beach community where we all know one another, and we all know there is something special about the place.”

There is a little brunette girl who is taking her grandmother in the shop. You see a lantern hanging in the corner; it has clear glass with a dark red trim. The little girl gets someone to take it down and runs to her grandmother and hands her the lantern. It is exactly what the grandmother was looking for and she asks the girl how she knew where to find it. The girl replies that she just did. They walk out of the shop with the lantern, smiling.

“People say there’s something about the sand, it gets in your blood. No matter how far you move, it’ll bring you back. Ask anyone who lives here; they will say that the properties of the sand keep you healthy.”

You see people walking around very happy and seem to be in enjoying a nice, perfect day. The colors are all vibrant giving the atmosphere a surreal quality to it.

“Of course when your time comes… it can also take as well as give.”

A car taking a turn skids on a patch of sand that has gotten onto the road and travels into the other lane, hitting another car head on. The view zooms in to a close up of the sand.

There is a concert in town and all of the young people are gathered there. It seems like almost a warehouse setting. There are fold out chairs for people to sit in and a small stage area for the band to play. Everyone seems to be enjoying the band except for one person, a boy who keeps wandering in and out of the room with a worried expression on his face. One of the other kids, a girl, sees him and pulls him out of the concert room and asks him what is going on. The boy says that he was expecting someone to show but hasn’t yet and is worried about him. They agree to go and check on their friend.
The walk only takes them 10 minutes, since his apartment is close by. As they approached the high-rise apartment they see the emergency fire way has wires sparking blue in the evening, like little fireworks. On top of the building they can see and flickering blue glow with larger sparks. Worried, they approach the complex to find out what is going on. They see a man looking out his window at the wires, adjusting the baseball cap he had on, he kept complaining about his cable being out and wanted to know what was going on. It was then that the kids spotted the broken window. They made their way up the fire escape, careful to avoid any sparks or wires. The window had a human size hole and a fair amount of blood covered both the inside and outside. From looking on the inside they could tell that it was indeed their friends apartment, and he could be seen nowhere inside. The girl was frightened and was unsure what to do. The boy turned to her and said to wait here and to call the police, he could see a trail of blood leading up the fire escape and wanted to see for him self what had happened.
The sight on top of the roof was a gruesome one. His friend was there among the wires, or what was left of his friend. The form was sprawled in an unnatural position over the electric wires that bounced and sparked on the concrete of the roof. Poor bastard must have fallen and broke the electrical wires before he collapsed. As he was turning to head back down the fire escape he thought he saw the body move. He turned back and to his horror it was true. His friend’s neck snapped around with a sickening crack, and slowly the arms started moving him backwards toward him. This could not be happening, he thought to himself, no way he could have still been alive. He fought the urge to vomit and just ran. He was amazed how fast he could actually make it down the fire escape. The girl turned and gave him a questioning look ‘just run’ the boy said grabbing her by the arm and urging her down to the street and to safety.
Pulling her arm from the boys grasp she scolded him ‘what is going on?’ As if in response the mangled horror that was once their friend thumped to the pavement not six feet away from them. Its limbs were at awkward angles and flesh still smoking and charred in some parts from the live wires. There is an odd shifting, like ripples that seem to be running right under the skin, but they soon faded. Both of them were very disturbed and the boy knew they had to tell someone about what he saw.
Down by the beach the sun casts its last light over the ocean waves that are crashing upon the beach You can see people grouped up on the beach, their joints obviously dislocated and limbs flailing all the wrong way as the mass horde of bodies crawls its way up the beach toward the town. Their movements were fast and jerky as if something were tossing their limbs for them. The daytime beach crowds were finally, at least in some form, making their way home.
The boy rode his bike as fast as he could; he knew who might believe him. The girl had not quite believed him when he described what he had seen on the roof. She simply stated that dead bodies cannot move. He could see his brother’s house now, if anything someone on the police force would be able to investigate what was going on.
I woke up shortly after when the group of zombie people started attacking the town.

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Life that imitates Art that imitates life !!!!!!!!! [03.15.09 at 4:08am]

Okay, I actually saw this commercial on TV... it is kinda creepy if you ask me. Avon will become the new Umbrella corp!
Tell me that you don't see the similarities between the two!


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=95_7-I3oi5g




http://shop.avon.com/shop/landing.asp?department=anewvideoC07
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Dream Journal [02.02.09 at 5:45am]
[ mood | awake ]

Dream Journal 02/01/09

Dream Journal Entry

My first Heros Dream

So I had a dream where I was Angela Petrelli and I had a niece that was friends with a girl who was being watched by Arthur Petrelli (angela's ex). I had asked her not to get involved, but for some reason she refused to listen to me, so I had to take action on my own. He has the power to get into people's minds so I wanted to protect her. despite the fact that she had made plans I went to the house before she was scheduled to get there I got a gps track on Arthur's car and even though the girl told me that the car was not in the area I wasn't surprised that it was Arthur and not the girl that my niece was going to see, who answered the door.

He greeted me in that oh so charming way he always has about him, and asked where my niece was. I told him she was getting some things out of the car. He followed me out to the car and quickly realized that she was no where around. He asked me what was going on. I wanted to keep him away from my family so I lied and pretened like she was just a character I had made up as a means to discover if he was trying to mess with my family.. I said mine because they no longer belonged to him, once he had crossed the line he had given up all claims to them. 'Angela, he said, I think this is a reflection of some deep seeded need you have to see me again.' I told him that I was doing this so that he would stay away, but I could feel him trying to slip into my mind and quickly reenforced my defenses. He was trying to impose his will onto my mind and siad 'you just need to let your guard down, Angela' I was straining now as his attack was getting more powerful 'This is why I don't let my guard down.' I said. I screamed and that is when I woke up.

http://www.nbc.com/Heroes/

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